Monday, December 27, 2010

monday mornin

well, we kinda slept last nite. josh slept better than i. i woke up about every hour...and when riley was cryin from about 3-4, i was wide awake...wonderin what was goin on. i drifted back to sleep when the cryin stopped...then went back to the wakin-up-every-hour routine. we were eatin breakfast w/the grandparents and aunt mendi a little while ago and tellin them about it. i said, "i just woke up every hour for no reason." kay smiled, and mama said, "no. not for no reason. that's the mama in you." :)

we haven't had her in our arms since last nite. honestly, i'm a little edgy. not worried or scared, i don't think....just really wantin her here w/us.

we had the oppportunity to meet the birthgrandfather. big, thick, rough-lookin farmer....but just as nice and friendly and encouraging as he could be. we talked to him and his wife (birthgrandmother) for probably 20 minutes....laughed and swapped stories...and we listened gratefully as they told us of their experiences w/babies.

josh as the car seat strapped in. formula's bought. we've called and scheduled the appt w/the pediatrician in the mornin. our stuff here in the room is packed.

oh - pediatrician. we got the meet the pediatrician here who's been seein riley. he was wonderful. smart, gentle, soft-spoken, funny in a quirky way, and honest. he said, "well, this baby's perfect. a little piglet, maybe, but perfect." so that was all reassuring.

so we're here at the hospital....just waitin. i texted w/the birthmother a little last nite. (yes, texted...even though there's nothin but a thin wall b/w us). haven't seen her this morning. the plan is for all the necessary folks (social workers, notaries, birthmother, witnesses) to be here about 1:40..

oh got to go! baby's comin in. more later