unexpected

the last blog was a brief update of the last few weeks....and then some words about the letter we had written to the father...at that time, it was minimized on this computer...

...it's now saved as a word document somewhere in the bowels of this machine. it never made it to the printer....into an envelope....through the united states postal service system...and into the hands of the birthfather.

josh and i had an agreement -- i would write the letter, and he would call the birthmother. we had to call her for the birthfather's mailin address. we wanted to call her and tell her what the lawyer had said, check on her, and make sure it was okay that we sent the letter. josh called in the mornin and caught her at work...she answered the phone and said she'd call back.

she hasn't.

can't say we're terribly surprised. a lot has happened in her life since we met her back in january. people in her community have come alongside her and supported her in some much-needed ways...provided for her and her kids...and believe she can grow into a better life than the one she's had.

so maybe she's changed her mind b/c of the change in circumstance.... maybe when she talked to the birthfather, and he said no (to the adoption), she gave up on the chance for adoption.... maybe she's determined her heart to keep and love and raise this baby... regardless of her motivation, a lot of time has passed since we last spoke...at least a lot of time relative to her pregnancy....and as the one w/the baby in her womb, she began workin toward bein the best mother she can be rather than waitin around for the birthfather to change his mind. the situation is what it is for her....and we believe she's tryin to turn things around, tryin to make the best of it.

and we're glad for her. we really are. josh said from the beginnin "she has the heart of a mother but doesn't always have the head (of a mother)." hopefully w/the support she has now, she can make better decisions and raise her children as they need to be raised. she's a brave, determined, strong young woman...

we don't expect to hear from her. but this isn't what we were expectin.

it's gettin close to bedtime.... josh and i have had a really good day together... yesterday was our 7th anniversary :) ... and i think the best thing for tonite is to leave it at that.

good nite.