arrival

she's here :)

she's a big girl...and according to the birthmother, she has big feet :). eight pounds, eleven ounces - twenty inches. we've seen on picture, and she's got a full head of brown hair :)

we're still in seymour. the plan is still for us to go down in the mornin.

since this mornin, quite a bit has happened. the social worker from the agency called and talked to the birthmother before the baby was born. she asked her pointblank, "are you still gonna place this baby for adoption?" the birthmother's response was, "yes. absolutely. i just need some time w/her." josh talked to monica (social worker) and felt a whole lot better. monica was very encouraging and yet realistic. she instructed us to stay home so that the birthmother doesn't feel crowded or pressured. she also said that, in her experience, a birthmother askin for time w/the baby prior to the adoptive family seeing her isn't as threatening or ominous as it seems. that often times, it's the birthmother's recognition of what's fixin to happen.

and actually, prior to josh's conversation w/monica, josh voiced a similar perspective. he said he was encouraged by the birthmother's continued dialogue about "these first 2 days." in all of her texts, she never once said anything about changin her mind about the adoption itself...just these first few hours. so the fact that she was (and is) talkin about the significance of these first few hours tells us she's lookin at that time in light of NOT havin the baby after 48hrs.

i don't know if that's clear at all. my mind's a little scrambled.

but we're okay tonite. we're a little encouraged. the birthmother is the one who texted us that the baby had been born. she's texted us a few times since then. just that she continues to initiate conversation w/us is good.

and we're also on edge. the house is just about clean :)...as i've hardly been able to sit still.

we just keep lookin at the sweetest picture of the sweetest little girl....a tiny picture on josh's phone.... how we're longin to hold her